Saturday, 2 January 2016

But I want to live and not just survive.

Happy New Year! I feel New year is a time to reflect on everything that has happened in the last year. Which for me can be a bit scary. I reflect and project properly too much. Living in the moment is something I'm trying to work on. I started to write a blog post in the beginning of December when I was on the Megabus back to cardiff and it was a very upsetting time. It's made me really think about what I want. I've never been on to really to push forward in anything. It's like I'm scared to go for something because I don't want to achieve or I'm scared of change. This is going to change. This year I'm 24. It's scared me a little that i feel like I've achieved nothing. Listening to Adele, 25 is emotionally destroying, made me think. There are two lyrics one being the title of this post and then another- I know I'm not the only one, who regrets the things they've done, sometimes i just feel it's only me who never became who they thought they'd be.
So this year I'm going to create a 2016 bucket list.  Wish me luck.
Big goals 
1.move to London 
2. Get a job that has good career prospects and that I'm passionate about. 
3. Have a holiday- it's been 5 years since my last holiday!!
4. No dating apps - it only wastes time and I won't find love there. P
5. Drink less alcohol - for obvious reasons. 
6. Be more proactive 
7.spend more time with the people I love.
8. Don't be scared to make a fool out of myself. 

Tuesday, 17 November 2015

Is it real or am I going out of my mind.

It was just a normal day. Normal uniform. A roll neck jumper and jeans. Maybe a little bit too casual but I had a blazer ready to pop on if anyone important came in, to smarten myself up. I had my jumper tucked in,of course, so you could kind of see my shape. I had only been in like ten minutes, during the middle of the day, when a customer approached me and asked me and a colleague for help with something. My colleague helped and I went back to doing whatever I was doing. The lady then reapproached me a bit earlier where she asked me for help and which I of course did. She then decided to make a comment about my weight. "Do you only employ skinny people, you need to go and have some food you look ill." It really unsettled me all day . Why did she think she could comment on my weight? If I was a larger person would she have had said the opposite? If I was a female would she have made that comment ?  Personally I just want to say eating has never been a problem for me. I eat regular with at least 3 meals a day. I don't think I'm too skinny, I'm just not very muscly either. Yes I work in fashion so what I wear is open to judgement but my weight is not for a complete stranger to come up and comment about. It's upset me because I'm not the shape I want to be I would love to be muscly and toned. It's something i am going to attempt to do but no stranger should comment on something so personal when they have no idea about the persons situation.  

Monday, 28 September 2015

I get so wrapped up in a world where nothing's as it seems And real life is stranger than my dreams.

 Sometimes Cardiff for me seems to small. London was just right. Yet I forgot why I love cardiff. It's the little things. As a child I never really went into Bute Park but it's so beautiful. It's Strange sometimes I feel we underrate the place we live in because we become desensitised to it but all it takes is a little detour into a place we haven't been to before to really look at the city. This year I'm hoping for snow and I've made a promise to charlotte that I will go out and have a snowball fight with her. Just as long as we do it in Bute park.  Outfit posts below enjoy. 

Shoes - river island. Jeans - River Island. Vest - New look.
Vintage shirt - Urban Outfitters .